my dad told me something so random he said if a guy really wants you in his life he would do everything to make sure your apart of his life but if he doesn't he won't do nothing. Gosh that's so true hahahaha. Sorry random thoughts.

I can't stand living in this house anymore. My step dad is always breaking things and yelling at everyone. Trying to burn down the house because nobody listens to him. But his main concern is me and my brother. He is so abusive. Hitting people doesn't make them listen it just makes it worst. Sometimes I wish my mom would leave him. He abuse your kids emotional and phyiscal but you still want to stay with someone who hurts your kids. Gosh sometimes my mom could be SELFISH.But it's true my brother doesn't listen. He doens't even care about himself anymore. He could do some much in his life. He is so smart. I mean if you love someone you want the best for them. I realize when people love you. They tell it how it is. They yell at you. But sometimes when you gave up on yourself other will gave up on you too.. Sometimes it's hard to stay strong when everything going wrong.

You said a little time is all you need.
You told me that you're still young and there's so much more you wanna see.
You said you wanted to be alone to get into yourself.
So I'm just supposed to let you go.
And pretend my heart don't hurt like hell.

Boy, it hurts me.
That you wanna be free.
Baby, if there's nothing I can't say
That'll make you want to stay with me.

Refrain:
Can you please answer this before you go?
How am I supposed to go through life alone?
Where am I to run for love if you're no longer home?
How can I continue going through life alone?

Boy I thought that you were my best friend.
You used to promise me your fidelity would never end.
Now you say you need your space to grow.
You wanna give back my heart but I give my love to only you.
I don't want to make a brand new start.
You were all my mine for all this time.
But baby if there's nothing I can't do that'll make you want to change your mind...

Refrain.

You're so special to me.
The thought of you leaving is killing me.
Please, tell me what do I do now?
'Cuz livin' without your love, I don't know how.
I don't...

Refrain x 2

it's so true music keeps me sane. This song is how i feel right now. I realize how i lost some friendship. Because of my stubborn ways. I'm just not happy with my life right now. There is so much I want to do with my life. But I don't know where to start. I tend to run away from my problems not saying how i really feel about things. & When things are really bothering me. Sometimes I want someone to talk to about my problems but i don't have anyone to turn to anymore. I just want someone to listen to what i have to say. I feel like nobody understand me. I feel so alone. I just want someone who will just be here for me. I guess I will never be content with my life.  I just really need someone right now.